Release

I .. ever fight for anyone until my last drop of dried blood. I struggle
so great .. to sacrifice so much.
I forgot how to make myself happy. All I merely did to fight for him.
Until the last moment we were together, I never gave up.
I never give up at all!
Even when he humbled himself, and make mistakes, I'm still there. Holding his hands and I told him that everything its gonna be fine.
Although he insisted .. and oust him completely. He said he'd Choosing the way.
I know what he means 'the way' is not as what it should be. Fear .. and guilt that always managed to beat him.
In the end 'street' is just simply the liberation of guilt he has done to me.
I always knew he was not strong enough to maintain his dignity. Love .. he says it that makes it releases me. He said, he had no more love for me.
I never blame it.
I'm just disappointed, why he did not try to defend what he had all along.
He allowed himself to lose me. He does not appreciate me.
He killed me. That will NEVER be forgiven.
I've promised never let him go. But I had to stop fight for him, because he was asking me to give up.  That's it.